have you ever wished that you could rewind your life and go back to the years when you were still a kid? those days when you did not have any problems at all? those days when all you're thinking about are the toys you want your parents to get for you? because now, i do. i wish i could turn back time and be a kid once again. i admit, i was a spoiled brat. i got everything that i wanted, WHAT BIANCA WANTS, BIANCA GETS. and so i thought it wold always remain that way. oh well, WISHFUL THINKING.

now that i am older, i guess, being spoiled became a disadvantage on my part, because not getting what i want just makes me act bitchy. but after all that has happened the past months, falling in love and finding out that it wont work, having to make a crucial decision, i have come to accept the reality, that life is not easy. if there is one thing that the "guy" has taught me, it is that i cannot always get what i want. this is life, and i just have to face it. and i thank him for that.

i have become a spontaneous person, who takes life as it comes. yeah, maybe its about time to stop planning about where my life is going, about the future, and just start living.. living each day.... and making the most out of it.

random stuff now:
- i have been going out and enjoying myself eversince i got here. thanks to my friends who are always there to support me and to accompany me :)

- i am getting my non pro liscence on the 18th! (which means that i am now driving without a liscense, note that i am a reckless driver! hahaha ) i cant wait!

- i am a lot closer to my mom now (i mean my grandma) and to my brother as well.

- im missing my manila friends! hehehee! i hope to see you guys soon! :) visit me na kasi! hehehe

- i am just happy to be back home.. i mean, in the time when life is just too harsh, that it seems like you cant take it anymore, its just nice to sleep on your own bed, in your own room, with your mom and dad on the other room.. its nice to be able to let all your feelings out to your closest friends, who are just around... its just nice to be home..

ciao!