Today...
Today is probably the most hectic day of my life. having to go to all the offices in this University makes me wanna go gaga. its a lot more harder leaving this school than getting in! i look so haggard and tired, who wouldnt? i have to ask clearance from the labs, the departments, and all the other offices. i just wanna take the next flight to bacolod, and unwind!
i hate going to Goks, its a building in La Salle, where my NSTP class is. for some reason, i cannot bear seeing chinese people. and this is their building, where they carry around their laptops, sit on the benches, open their laptops, and god, how could they be so weird?! not that i am discriminating them, (yeah, my dad told me we have chinese blood) but because seeing them would remind me of something that i do not want to remember for the rest of my life. dont get me wrong here, i have nothing against my chinese friends (sophia, kurt, jericho, wilson, and a lot more) and the others who are good to me, but you cannot blame me for feeling this way. having to deal with a lot of chinese guys earlier (while asking for clearance) made me think, is la salle a chinese school? probably more than half of the students here are chinese, and most of them are taga-Goks... and yeah, i also see a lot of chinese at the malls, greenbelt particularly.. even the cashier of coffee bean (my favorite!) is chinese. God, how can i get rid of all of them?!!!
forget that.
let me see..... i talked to my mom last night, i mean, my real mom, and she is happy with my decision. i guess, there are times when we have to be practical, when we'd have to give up things just to do what's right, when we'd have to give up our own dreams to fulfill the dreams of our parents. this is not the right time to be selfish. i have been very selfish before. i did anything i wanted, went to the school i want, and did not consider doing what my parents want. this time, i will be an obedient daughter. dont get me wrong, this decision wasnt because i was pressured. this is my decision. yeah, my parents have been telling me for the longest time to come back home, but its all up to me. they told me that this is my life, and the final decision is mine... and im keeping my fingers crossed, coz this decision will surely change my life, the rest of it... i will leave no room for regrets... after all, this is what i want, and this is whats good for me.
i guess i have to end this here, i havent finished my application for transfer credentials yet... till next time, wish me luck! :)
p.s. ill be an official bum for the next 5 months... hahahha!
i hate going to Goks, its a building in La Salle, where my NSTP class is. for some reason, i cannot bear seeing chinese people. and this is their building, where they carry around their laptops, sit on the benches, open their laptops, and god, how could they be so weird?! not that i am discriminating them, (yeah, my dad told me we have chinese blood) but because seeing them would remind me of something that i do not want to remember for the rest of my life. dont get me wrong here, i have nothing against my chinese friends (sophia, kurt, jericho, wilson, and a lot more) and the others who are good to me, but you cannot blame me for feeling this way. having to deal with a lot of chinese guys earlier (while asking for clearance) made me think, is la salle a chinese school? probably more than half of the students here are chinese, and most of them are taga-Goks... and yeah, i also see a lot of chinese at the malls, greenbelt particularly.. even the cashier of coffee bean (my favorite!) is chinese. God, how can i get rid of all of them?!!!
forget that.
let me see..... i talked to my mom last night, i mean, my real mom, and she is happy with my decision. i guess, there are times when we have to be practical, when we'd have to give up things just to do what's right, when we'd have to give up our own dreams to fulfill the dreams of our parents. this is not the right time to be selfish. i have been very selfish before. i did anything i wanted, went to the school i want, and did not consider doing what my parents want. this time, i will be an obedient daughter. dont get me wrong, this decision wasnt because i was pressured. this is my decision. yeah, my parents have been telling me for the longest time to come back home, but its all up to me. they told me that this is my life, and the final decision is mine... and im keeping my fingers crossed, coz this decision will surely change my life, the rest of it... i will leave no room for regrets... after all, this is what i want, and this is whats good for me.
i guess i have to end this here, i havent finished my application for transfer credentials yet... till next time, wish me luck! :)
p.s. ill be an official bum for the next 5 months... hahahha!
posted by bianx @ 11:46 AM
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