Okay, Now Im Lost

i honestly hate the feeling of being lost, of not knowing where you're heading to. thats what i feel now. *sigh* i do not know where my life is going. i know i have dreams, and i want to reach them, but then, there are some things that i just cant get used to. for one- being away from the people i love most. that includes my family and my barkada. i never thought this would be one of the reasons on why im thinking of moving back to bacolod. i always was strong. its just now that the weakness in me comes out. its just now that i give more importance to the people i love than other things. i want to have fun, and i know that moving back to bacolod would be one. im not saying that manila life aint fun. of course it is. its different though.. i cant explain... basta i know its different. apparently, one thing that stops me from leaving manila is SHOPPING! i so love the malls here.

i also know that if i choose to go back to bacolod, ill regret it. but then again, when did i ever deprive myself of doing something even if i know that ill regret it in the end? but dont get me wrong, i do not like the feeling of regretting something i did. i just love to take risks and to learn from the wrong decisions i made. experience is the best teacher, right?

and now, friends and family members are beginning to convince me of moving back for good. i dont really listen though. you know me, i like doing whatever is the opposite of what people tell me. i like to prove them wrong. i guess ill have to think deeper about this. ill have to weigh the advantages and disadvantages of moving back to bacolod. maybe then ill see whether or not ill pursue the plan. ill post my decision as soon as i make one.